Just a quick post because I can't get this out of my mind. I'm just amazed at the things people say. I know they just don't get it and they mean well but unless you've walked in our shoes, you just don't get it.
Rob visited BAMC (Brooke Army Medical Center, where he worked last year and will hopefully be back to in just over a year). He was talking to one of his former classmates/coworkers. What she said is something Hope Mommies (& Daddies) hear all too often - "But you're still young, you can have more kids." BUT WE CAN'T HAVE HER AGAIN! What makes this different, she is a mom to 2 year old twins and is due again in July. That makes her 7+ months pregnant. I hope I wasn't that way, I really don't think I was. How can she be so clueless when she's carrying a child inside her womb at this very moment? You mean to tell me, she'd be okay if her baby died; after all, she's still young, too. Luckily I wasn't there when she made this comment.
I just have to remind myself, she really just doesn't get it. And I have to forgive her for making that comment. It is moments like this that I wish others could live in our shoes, for just one day. I would not wish this on anyone but if there was just some way they could understand a little better. But there's not...not without experiencing it themselves. I also have to thank God that I've found such an amazing group of Godly women that are (unfortunately) walking this road I'm on. Because they've been there, they get it. I wish they didn't. Isn't that an irony? I wish the ones who don't get it somehow could but the ones who do get it, I wish they didn't.
I'm starting to ramble so I'll leave it at that. On a side note, I feel like I'm seeing pregnant women and babies under 6 months old everywhere I look.
Ryan, I miss you baby girl. I keep seeing cute summer outfits, sandals, and swimsuits for you. I wish you were here with me but I know that's selfish. I'm sorry. You know how much I love you, don't you? As long as I'm here, I'll miss you.
We love you, Ryan Elizabeth.